2005-07-31T19:00:00.000-07:00

The Day I Said YES to GOD.

July 31st, 2005 will remain a very special day for me as it was the day I finally decided to take my big leap of FAITH. And for those of you who know me....the words FAITH and TRUST are not commonly found in my vocab (being a confessed cynic)........ Why did I do it?

It all began when (and now that I know I'm not crazy..I thot I'd share this story with you all) I brought mom to Church in Ipoh one weekend. I saw all these really happy people singing and just having loads of fun....I quietly asked GOD in my heart, "So why are there so many people in this place that love you? Are you real?" something to the effect la....I think he heard me.

He decided to show me what's real one night. .. Due to a bad fall (hurting my least padded area of my butt), I had to sleep in the green room alone and this is what happened to me - in the middle of the night, I felt a heavy throbbing in my (I think it was left) eye. I woke up and with great difficulty went into the bathroom to check. To my horror, my eye had "grown" HUGE, the swelling looked scary, it was soft and spongy, I thot this was it.....the end of me! Feeling terrified, I went back to bed and told myself that I would see the doctor, first thing in the morn.

Then the voice and the laughter came....it mocked me and laughed at my fear, it said that it was going to destroy me, just like it had many other people (I guess those with no faith). Common reaction here is to quickly chant the buddhist prayer - Namo O Mi Thor Fatt....guess what? It didn't work! The laughter grew louder and said,"Is this the best you can do?" My heart began to pound...then I remembered the Lord's Prayer (from way back in school) and tried my best to say it....I couldn't finish it (forgot half the words)! But it WORKED! The voice stopped laughing and said to me, "Oh...so you do know, so you do believe...." and left.

The next morning, the "Dana Scully" in me went over to Dr. Pritam Singh's eye clinic....for a check-up. He pronounced my eyes perfectly OK, healthy. NOTHING wrong with them....

For weeks, I kept the incident in my heart - worried that I had truly overstepped the boundaries of sanity and gone over! Voices in my head???? Geez! Finally, I shared this with my sister and my friend Alice....they told me I was OK...FINE, normal even...and it began to dawn on me that it was my own fault that it happened....the disbeliever in me must have sparked an interest in the darker forces of nature and they thought probably that it was a good time to like "do me in".....unfortunately for them, GOD was watching over me and HE turned what seemed like a "lost case" into something wonderful for me. HE was there for me when I needed HIM.

Then baby Chaela Lim got sick (Michelle & Alex's baby) and they asked us to pray together for her to get well....and she did! HE was there when we needed HIM!

Both these incidents truly renewed my faith in HIM and my readings so far have really helped me understand things better too. I love that when I have a question, that the answers come to me so clearly, in one way or the other.

So finally, yesterday, when the pastor asked if I would surrender my life to GOD and Jesus and let them be the navigator - unconditionally, even when it sometimes becomes hard...I said yes! And the moment I stood up and did that, I felt a sense of peace - that which I have been looking for - come over me.

Praise The Lord!

2005-07-30T06:19:00.000-07:00

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